I’m standing at the crossroads these days – today – now. The quest is calling to me, and I’ve verbally said: “Yes”. But, I don’t know where to go with it.
I feel the need – a deep desire even – to find an opportunity, that to use terminology from my sister, keeps me away from “the dark side”. The dark side is what I know. It is comfortable. I will not say it’s easy. It gave me heart disease, and two stents.
But, it’s what I know. However, I also know it’s not where my passion lies.
The dark side allows me to solve a financial problem I have today. And, I may have to take that path for a few years, until I figure out – somehow – where my light side is located.
Writing this feels like a total cop out, and it is, I know.
I have to find the strength to keep moving along the path to the light side. It’s time for this hero to be brave. The dragon is breathing down on me. I can feel its fire on my body.
The decision is to be my own hero, or become a serf in someone else’s story.
I want to say that I’ve decided to be a hero, but I’m at the crossroads, and feel a strong pull to turn and run away. The dragon is winning … tonight, it’s winning.