Today, while walking my dog in a beautiful wooded park, I found my thoughts drifting to doubt and fear. What a shame!
There I was in a quiet, wonderful place, with one of my pals – Scout, our 15-month Yellow Lab. But, I wasn’t there with her. I was off worrying about my future.
I have worked hard to stay present, and shape my thoughts into those that serve me. And, it’s work. Some of the hardest I’ve ever done.
I don’t wish for a quick fix here because that would not serve me either. This work is the work that matters most. It’s what helps us to become who we really are in this life. Heroes! On the Quest that matters, in answer to the Call.
I do feel I’m on the path to my best self – it’s just not a straight line.
Today, I’m travelling to my meetings at HQ for the opportunity interviews, or business meetings, as I prefer to call them. All part of this grand Quest, and my desire to live the Call.
I had a lot of idle time today – waiting at Customs, waiting for flights, and sitting on the plane.
I spent a fair bit of time observing the mental chatter that went through my mind.
There were periods of joy and expectation, as well as the usual fear and doubt.
I find it interesting that I now seem to have developed the ability to “see” these thoughts play out in my mind.
And, I can more or less bring them in and face them, consider them, and determine if they serve me.
Banishing those that do not serve is still a work in progress. But, I’m at least grateful that I tend to detect them before they run on too long.
A bit every day …
I know I come back to these themes on a regular basis. I have to, as for to me, I am forced to embrace these aspects of the Call day in, day out. Today is a perfect example of what I mean.
As you know, I’m very selectively pursuing strategic opportunities in my professional – and let’s face it – my personal life. They’re all connected. You don’t make decisions for one, without it also being a decision for the other.
I’m getting close to the end of the evaluation / due-diligence phase with one opportunity. I can feel the fear and doubt ramp up in volume within me. So loud in fact, that they are masking the subtle intuitive nudges, and the hope I carry for a wonderful, bright future.
I guess I’ve come to realize that the bravest hero still confronts fear and doubt. It’s what they do with them that matters. Today, I felt the fear and doubt in a big way: “Will I make the right choice, when it’s time to do so?” That’s the usual question I confront.
That’s where I put my faith in my ability to take a deep breath, and make the right decision. It all starts and ends with me.
I now embrace all aspects of this journey to the Call – fear, doubt, intuition and hope.
Welcome, as I know you’re telling me a change is about to happen. And, that’s good.
Today, I had an interview with a technology company based in the USA.
As I prepared for the interview, I could feel my old fears start to grow, and attempt to consume me.
I don’t know why, but I caught myself thinking in this manner, and immediately decided to change my focus to looking forward to the talk with expectation, and as an adventure. (I’m a hero, after all!)
As soon as I made this mental shift, my fears went away, and I shifted into a mode where I was looking forward to telling my story. And, to hearing about theirs.
The hero’s quest is hard enough. Don’t look back – look forward instead.