I’ve been on this Myth Quest for almost 3 months now.
So, how’s it going?
That’s a fair question and one I’ve given thought to today.
It’s safe to say that the most significant contribution penning this blog has made in my life is that it has kept me accountable – to you and to myself.
The accountability factor is more mental than it is physical. It’s not about ensuring I write every day. I enjoy writing, which is a great outcome I’ve gleaned from this blogging process. A nice bonus!
No, the accountability is related to ensuring I keep to my mission: to answer the Call.
Even when I try to deny the Call out of fear or doubt, I cannot now escape knowing it’s there in front of me. Calling to me, so to speak.
My biggest fear right now is that I’ll settle – for less – of myself and in my decisions the Call is asking me to make.
You see, the Call is not concerned with success or failure. It doesn’t care if you risk everything in order to answer the Call’s siren song. That’s my fear; that’s the doubt!
What I’ve learned is the Call is a little like Pandora’s Box. Once opened, I can’t put it back in again.
It’s always there, it’s real and it has high expectations of me. Can I trust enough for that to be enough?
No movement forward on the opportunity Quest. I’m now in the middle of a formal process with one firm, and there’s not much I can do about it but wait.
I guess I would compare this to the traveling, the long nights and just boring times that the Fellowship of the Ring had to deal with in Lord of the Rings. There’s lots of excitement, but then long periods of standard days and nights. This is about Myth, right? 🙂
The end of the Quest is in sight, which will of course lead to the beginning of a new Quest. That’s the gig, and I’m looking forward to it.
So, for now, I’ll adventure slowly, yet knowing that there’s more excitement coming!
I’ve been drifting off track, off Quest, these past few days. I now know what that’s about: avoidance.
I’ve come to realize that taking risks is not something I’m used to doing – even though I’ve always convinced myself that I was comfortable with them.
Oh, sure, I have taken risks in my life – personal and professional.
The risk I’m talking about is the risk of taking a stand, of allowing the world to see the real me. And, to proudly proclaim my desires, hopes and dreams that come with that territory.
I can sense how uncomfortable I feel as I write these words. I was taught to blend in, to be quiet and be part of the background.
And, in my life I’ve mostly done that yet always felt something was missing. Even though I’ve been a “blender”, it has made me a sometimes frustrated and angry person.
I can’t even promise you tonight that I’ve got the strength or will to put myself 100% out there – I wish I did. I want to with all my heart. I was angry today, and this is why. I’m denying myself permission to break out, and be.
I thought I had that one beat. There’s more work to do …
Today, while walking my dog in a beautiful wooded park, I found my thoughts drifting to doubt and fear. What a shame!
There I was in a quiet, wonderful place, with one of my pals – Scout, our 15-month Yellow Lab. But, I wasn’t there with her. I was off worrying about my future.
I have worked hard to stay present, and shape my thoughts into those that serve me. And, it’s work. Some of the hardest I’ve ever done.
I don’t wish for a quick fix here because that would not serve me either. This work is the work that matters most. It’s what helps us to become who we really are in this life. Heroes! On the Quest that matters, in answer to the Call.
I do feel I’m on the path to my best self – it’s just not a straight line.
Today was another off-Quest day. I worked around the house, and took care of things not related to my opportunity search.
So, what did I learn today that is relative to myth in my life?
I learned that I too easily forget the power I have – that we all have – to live an amazing life. To be my own Hero. I so quickly get bogged down in the small stuff of life, and lose sight of my vision – the very thing that drives Hope and Abundance.
Tomorrow, my goal is to stay as fixed as I can be in that vision. To make it a habit.
Well, I got back on the horse, so to speak. Today, I was the master of my thoughts and desires, and I feel that I’ve come back.
What I learned today is that we can’t let one day throw us off our Quest for a full life. Stuff will happen, but it does not have to define us – short- or long-term.
There’s much to be done, and I’m looking forward to getting to it this coming week. Tally-Ho!
This will be a short post. I was not a strong Hero today.
I allowed myself to get stuck in the past – my fears, doubts and mistakes.
I did my best to get beyond, but it was a struggle today, and my shadow self won.
Tomorrow is another day; I have not given up. Just lost this battle in a much bigger Quest.