It’s getting interesting, this Quest

Progress on a couple fronts today. I now have a second meeting planned with the company I met yesterday. And, next week I have a day of meetings planned with the other folks, at their head office.

This Quest, I think, will be resolved in the next two or three weeks, if we can jointly keep the momentum going.

So, what’s the experience been like these past few days?

Well, some anxiety due to my commitment to ensure I perform this Quest as a Hero. It’s about being brave, and making this decision based on what’s right, true and authentic for me.

I’ve committed myself to finding a great opportunity to be my best, versus just getting a job or chasing money. I’ve played that game far too often in the past, and it is not a very rewarding way to live life.

An important meeting tomorrow and another Quest

Tomorrow, I have an important meeting – a 3rd interview with a firm I approached about working together.  The first two meetings were conducted over the phone, but this one will be face-to-face.  I’m looking forward to it.

Every interview is a vetting process whereby both parties evaluate the other for fit and probability of success.  My previous two meetings gave me a good feeling about those two criteria.  Tomorrow, I’ll get to ask about what it’s like to work for and with this company, and why I should give my time to them.  After all, for many of us, we sell our time – our life – to the companies for whom we work.  They will have an equal opportunity to make the same judgement call about me.

I’m viewing this as a small Quest.  No dragons to slay.  This is really about making sure I don’t create a dragon today that I’ll have to deal with in the future.

A mini-Quest and a new path

In my last post, I discussed past points of failure in my life.  It was a sobering exercise for me to commit those words to writing, and they have been on my mind all day.

I was working on a task today – one in which I could have taken the easy, fast path to completion.  However, I had the post from yesterday ringing in my mind.  Quality and care were the order of the day.

I took the quality path, and it led to a longer job, but one in which I was much more satisfied with my effort.  And the end result showed that extra quality, as well.

So, a successful mini-Quest and a new, more interesting path going forward.  A small win, but a proud win.

My past points of failure: insight

Writing this daily blog has provided me with insights – some big, some small – some important, some not so much.

It has also forced me to be accountable to the truth of my life: good and bad.

Today, while driving in the car, I was shown, if you will, my past points of failure – two of which I’m not proud – and that I seek to improve on each day.

First, I realized that I have too often sought out shortcuts rather than settling in to do the hard work that excellence demands.

Second, I’ve often lacked hope at a soul level – the hope that comes when we feel that we’re good enough, and do deserve the best.

These two qualities, I now realize, have created much struggle and strife in my life. And, they have to go.

My commitment to you, and myself is that I’ll strive to realize when they appear, and then make the appropriate change.

Sometimes the Quest is simply taking the next step

Today, I was reflecting on my Quest. I learned that I have no broad answers today about the quest. And, to be honest, I don’t have any small insights either.

What I do know is that I have to keep moving forward, to take the next step.

Sometimes that’s all we’ve got to go on in a given day, and sometimes that’s enough.

You can’t let the darkness win

Today, as I worked on sizing up an opportunity, I felt the darkness take hold.

It was the little voice telling me I’m not good enough, not young enough, and not ready.

The interesting thing was that I had an awareness that none of it was true. I’m everything I need to be right now, and I was able to discern that – there was the slight pause or gap which allowed me to insert a more useful message.

That pause has taken years to develop, and I’m grateful that I was able to call on it today.

Tomorrow is a new day. Onward …