Tonight I give thanks

Last night, I wrote about the potential for challenge in my life related to having to make a decision before I’m ready.

Tonight, I was at my sister’s for Thanksgiving dinner. It was a fine affair, and I feel blessed that I was able to enjoy the time with my family. I discussed my conundrum, and was heartened by the support I was given to stay the course on this Quest.

Without fail, each and every person I spoke to cautioned me to follow my heart, to listen to the still, small voice and to trust that I’ll make the right decision.

Answering the Call and doing life Quests is by and large a solo affair, and is not without a fair share of doubt and loneliness.

Ultimately, we decide on our own! It has to be that way. The reasons we decide one way or another may involve other people or circumstances. But, the decision is always ours to make.

However, it was gratifying to have the support of my family, and the knowledge that they trust me to make the right decision!

This Quest is a bit less lonely tonight. And, I’ve realized that I, too, can provide support and lift up someone answering their own Call.

A big decision is looming

Today, I had a first meeting with a company here in Toronto.  They are an excellent firm, and have a great mission, which is to help entrepreneurs find freedom in their businesses.

I was very impressed with the company, and how it operates.  By no means is it a guarantee that I’ll be working with this company, but I’m intrigued to the point of wanting to learn more.

What’s interesting is that the Quest this opportunity represents is a major challenge, and would require some big goal-setting, and thinking on my part, and excellent execution, too.  The rewards would be there, too, if I pulled it off.

The interesting part for me is that I am not feeling daunted by this challenge.  No, in fact, I find it liberating and wonderful to have the possibility of a big goal to work towards.  It gets my creativity going, and I’m enjoying this rush.

The decision I refer to relates to the fact I am pursuing two opportunities at this time.  Both are excellent, and represent fine opportunity for me.

The trick will be to apply intuition to making the decision, as well as seek out the hard facts for each opportunity.

Another step closer and some insight

Today, I had a face-to-face interview with a manager, and the person I would report to at the company in question, should we decide we want to work together.  It was a useful meeting, as I was able to gain an appreciation for the expectations of the role, and also how it roughly fits into the corporate strategy for growth.  And, I also gained some insight into a unique ability I can claim as my own.

There’s one thing I often think about when pursuing a project, a goal or a Quest.  For those who have been following for a while, you know that I see this search as a quest, as part of the myth of my life.  It’s an opportunity to be all I can be – it’s an intention that I have for my life going forward, as I’ve never had before.

So, what’s the insight?  It’s my innate desire to deliver an “elegant solution” to the challenge at hand.  Sometimes the elegant solution is very subtle, but it defines me as a different person when I’m in these situations.  Not better, just different.  Good different.

My next step with this company is a series of interviews at their head office.

Once I knew these meetings were happening, I immediately started to apply my creativity to determine how I could leave them with a lasting impression.  I want to do more than just go down, and recite what I learned from reading their last annual report.

As I go through this creative process, and the wheels start turning, I find that time stands still, and that I operate in a stream of hope, faith and abundance.  There is no fear, there is no doubt.  This is the “real” me.

I have come to realize that one of my goals going forward is to find opportunities to place myself in this state of flow as often as I can.  It’s where I do my best work, and effortlessly create amazing results in my life.  Pretty cool!

It’s a spiritual quest

Today, while on a long walk with my dog, I realized that my quest to find the perfect opportunity is really a spiritual quest.  For me, now, it is anyway.

I have a deep and burning desire to bring meaning to my next venture.  I can feel the truth of that need in every fibre of my being.  It is not to be shunned or overlooked.  Not any more!

This feeling I’m describing is something that I just know has to be true for me on this next venture.  No substitutions, no excuses, no accepting less than I can be.

I know that when I see it, I’ll know it to be my right choice – the way to bring me to the Call.

That’s really what happened on the walk today.  I received a complete image of that right choice, with positive feelings that told me the choice would be whole and right.

I’m getting closer to this truth.

And, another door opened

Yesterday, I mentioned that I was going to decline to further pursue an opportunity because I knew it was not right for me.  You’ll recall I felt the very real fear that I was giving up on this opportunity too soon, even though my intuition was telling me to let it go.

I realize now that fear came from a lack mentality towards life.  And, it was.  It’s something I’ve struggled with most of my life.

An hour after I wrote yesterday’s post, and mentally turned down the opportunity, a wonderful thing happened.  Another door opened – only one hour later.

Next week, I’m meeting with an organization that I feel – based on what I know today – could be the right opportunity for me.  What’s also interesting is that I’m also engaged in evaluating a second opportunity, for which I had two great meetings today.  There are an abundance of paths and doors just waiting to open, once we announce our intention to move in one direction – or not.

It’s not always easy for me, but the more I do it, the more I’m beginning to trust these leaps of faith, these Quests to find my place in this life.  Another grateful man, on a great day!

We have to know when to say “No”

I had my business meeting today, and it was a fruitful meeting. I learned about the opportunity from someone who’s got feet on the street.

The opportunity is a very good one. There’s no doubt about it. However, the role would require me to be someone I’m not. And, I question whether I’d really enjoy the work day in, and day out.

So, I’m at a bit of a crossroads, once again. Am I strong enough to follow my intuition, and trust that by saying “No” to this opportunity, that’ll I’ll be able to say “Yes” to one that will follow?

In the past, the answer would probably have been that I took the opportunity because it was there. I don’t feel comfortable making those decisions any longer.

But, there’s the fear that something else will not come along, too.

When I go to my still, quiet place inside, my sense is that I should walk away. Leave it for someone who’s better suited to the role.

OK, done. I’m saying “No”, and with gratitude for the chance to evaluate this opportunity.

And, the Quest continues.

An important meeting tomorrow and another Quest

Tomorrow, I have an important meeting – a 3rd interview with a firm I approached about working together.  The first two meetings were conducted over the phone, but this one will be face-to-face.  I’m looking forward to it.

Every interview is a vetting process whereby both parties evaluate the other for fit and probability of success.  My previous two meetings gave me a good feeling about those two criteria.  Tomorrow, I’ll get to ask about what it’s like to work for and with this company, and why I should give my time to them.  After all, for many of us, we sell our time – our life – to the companies for whom we work.  They will have an equal opportunity to make the same judgement call about me.

I’m viewing this as a small Quest.  No dragons to slay.  This is really about making sure I don’t create a dragon today that I’ll have to deal with in the future.